While standing here so close to You
We could be consumed
What a glorious day” – David Crowder Band (check out this song here.)
I don’t believe this is the first time I have mused on the above song lyrics, but today they strike me all over again. Imagine with me standing on the edge of a cliff. Behind you, you can see the life you have lived for the last number of years or perhaps since birth. In front of you, you can see an endless sky, a beautiful vista, and opportunity. In order to reach what is in front, you must leave what is behind.
There have been two times in my life where I can remember thinking “after this moment, nothing will be the same.” It is a scary place to be. Very scary actually. So why do it? Why take that step and free fall into the unknown? Maybe it will be better than what I am leaving behind, maybe it will be worse, but it will defiantly be different. I have heard the sentiment “change leads to growth” or some variation of it many times over the course of my life so far, but I have not heard it so eliquently put as it was by author and poet C. Joybell C.:“The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change. The only way that we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself.”
Change leads to growth. When I first left my parents house for a new life in a new city, I was flooded with thoughts and mixed emotions. I was excited at the prospect of starting somewhere fresh where I could redefine who I was and where no one expected me to act or behave a certain way. I was horrified at the possibility of losing my safe haven and being “on my own.” What I discovered, however, was that in leaving my known life behind I was able to learn about who I was and determine from there who I wanted to be. The wheels of change were set into motion and in one action the course of my life changed.
I also learned that I would never be “on my own” as I thought. In some ways, I feel my relationship with my family has been strengthened by the distance between us. The time we get to spend together (whether on the phone, on Skype, or when we get lucky enough to be together in person) is valuable and cherished. I am so thankful for the time and effort my family makes to help me stay connected to them despite being so far away.
Today I went to a service at a new church, bought some supplies at a new SuperStore, and walked around a new city. For the second time in my life I can say that things are different and will not be the same as they were before. I am not afraid of change, though. I embrace it and am so excited to see how I will grow from it. Tomorrow I move into a new house in a new community (which apparently has an “amazing” soccer team) and look forward to the new challenges and new opportunities that lay ahead.